Bra-shaming

Hello.

Today I'm going to write about something rather disturbing...well, at least for me: Bra shopping. I HAVE to write about it...writing about things helps me to get over with them. So here we go:
Today me and my mom went underwear shopping. I think that this is sooo shameful! But I know it has to be done. I felt very uncomfortable in a shop full of bras and undies! Well, of course I went undies shopping before, but the difference is that the shop we went to this time was sooo much more stylish than the old lady undie store last time. Oh, because last time, I told my mom that I only want grandma underwear, because anything else is too shameful!!! 
So...I was in a cabin and tried on one of the more stylish bras. Then I called my mom who was in the other cabin, but mom said she won't come over to check, I should ask the nice assistant lady. I didn't want to ask the assistant lady, because...BECAUSE! Stranger danger. But finally I had no other choice ;_; I was so surprised; she was actually really nice! Also, I was happy that the bra fit! 
And not only that...it also made my waist look longer, how cool is that!? But then I realised, that I don't look that bad, so I was scared and started bra-shaming. I told my mom that this is horrible and I hate bras, and that I wanna go back to the grandma bras!!!!!  But mom said "No Venus listen to me, I'm still 22 years older than you, just like yesterday!" and I said: "No mom if you buy this bra I'll never wear it!!!" 
Then the assistant lady & my mom laughed & talked about how shy I am, and that there are girls who are more outgoing. And I was like "Whatever! Bras are shameful!" My mom told me that I should grow up a bit more. But I said: No mom, I want to be kawaii & kinda retarded forever! 
I like being kinda retarded & shy, it makes me feel cute ^.^ But what if it is not cute...but really just childish and dumb? ;_; Mom told me I should accept my body, but I can't! Well, I'm sure I could...but I don't want to. I think that accepting your body is a shameful thing, too. @_@
What do you guys think? Should I try harder growing up?

I don’t like the word 'gay rights'

I hate how people part it into “gay” and “not gay” It’s like gay people are “different humans” so they need different rights!? “We’re all different but same same.” Gay people should be allowed to marry and to adopt kids and live happy and free like everybody else. No, gay people shouldn’t be discriminated because there is nothing, really nothing wrong with them. The only thing that’s wrong are people’s mind, hypocrites who think that being gay is abnormal. Eww, again a word I hate is “abnormal”. Here In London I saw an advertisement on a bus saying “Some people are gay, get over it”. This ad made me think that maybe some people don’t like gay people? I can’t find a reason why not to like them. They are by the way so much friendlier than and most of them care about how they look not like many people I see…or yeah anti gay people XD Arguing over what gay people can do and what not is senseless. They probably just do it to hide the real problems from the public! : ( Hopefully there’ll be a time where people can just live equally without classifying each other in folders ._. 

Sick of being "VenusAngelic"?

This is a question I answered on my Tumblr earlier, I thought I'd share this also on my blog.

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Question:

"Do you ever get sick of being "VenusAngelic"?

 You know, tired of being a character all the time, dealing with the responsibilities it comes with, handling the endless hordes of haters? You appear to me to be a pretty complex individual, not just some Japanophile who has to dress up like a doll to make money. I bet there are days where you want to run away from it all and be free to think, say and do whatever you want."

My Answer:

That is not just a “character”. If that’d be a character then I’d had to live a double life which I can’t imagine how tiring that would be, because already living one life is so tiring!

2 lifes = more problems!

I started doing YouTube so I could be what I AM and not to create multiple personalities. 

Actually, in my videos and on my blog people can see how I really am, that’s not a fake made up character. And, Venus Angelic you see on YouTube is actually Venus Isabelle Palermo. I just wanted a fancy username, okay. And my grandmother’s mom name in Hungarian is “Angel” so I thought it’d fit perfectly! <3

I always say and do what I want, now even more than earlier because doing YouTube and getting hate mail really took most of my fear and made me believe more in myself, that’s why I can just go on TV and be me without being nervous. 

Sometimes, I’m sad and hurt, but that’s not because of silly stuff like “omg som1 told me that I’m ugly and IÄm hated by ever1 TT__TT omg they’re looking at me weird and think I’m crazy”

Noo, that’s because of real problems like probably not being a able to pay and go to school, even though I’m a good student, or organising my day so I can study but also fulfill my wish of uploading 2 videos a week!

Or, problems like documentaries think of me like a retarded girl who doesn’t want to grow up, asking me if I play with dolls, asking me to show them how I change my voice and “set” my character and want to analyse if everything’s alright in my head. 

And running away, or drinking, smoking, cutting myself, anything which makes me turn my face away from all the problems is the LEAST thing I would do! That’s nonsense!
Also, I’m not an egoistic, lazy person who just runs away, leaving problems everywhere. And, you can never just “run away from life”. What would you guys do if your parents just “run away” be free and say what they want to their boss, and at the end of the month they can’t pay the rent and your phone? Life is not that simple!! YOU CAN’T RUN AWAY FROM PROBLEMS!!! Face your problems, struggle, even if it’s death, face it, struggle and if you die then you die!

People who run away from their problems end up homeless or have to rent a sofa for 300 pound, no such a privilege as privacy or a bubble bath!!

*P.S: I don't say that people who drink, cut, smoke, etc. are egoistic and lazy, the meanings aren't connected! @_@;; If you do any of these things or/and similar I understand you and wish you good luck and hope you feel better ♥

The answer to: "Why did I cut my hair?"

Hello my prickly pickle!

"Oh! Hi! Yeah! Really! I did! 2 months ago!"

This is the story of why I chopped my hair off and returned to my natural dark brown hair colour.
The idea came from my hair stylist and the fan from Japan, and from me, of course.

In May my hair started falling out due to tons of stress, puberty (yes I finally hit it wooohoo) and more stress. Some people assume it's the bleaching's fault, but it isn't. I bleached my hair for 1 year and let it grow long. I know when and why it started falling out, that's for me to tell you! : 3


Hairstylist guy said:
1.- I think that it's impossible to dye you hair back, without totally damaging it and leaving it with a slight tone of green.
2.- Yeah sure, I can cut you a bob!
* The hairstylist even took a sample of my hair and died it, but it looked green-ish violet and fried. O_o

Mom said:
1.- Leave the dying to me <3

Fan From Japan said:
1.- Get a dark brown bob
2.- Put your hair behind your ears, people will love you when they can see your ear.
3.- Wear brown or black circle lenses
4.- Wear light makeup, and with that, I mean only some concealer, mascara and lip gloss (but not red!)

These instructions came with this set of pictures.

So I followed the idea of the fan from Japan, mom dyed my hair brown (and it looked a marshmallowian times better than the Hairstylist's little experiment, haha XD) and the Hairstylist cut me a Shinoda Mariko bob.

And with all these ingredients I turned out to look like this:

My viewers in niconama and most of my fangelic (and even non-fangelics) were delighted that I look more natural. And, I'm happy too! : D

So that's the story!

If you have any more questions, I'll be glad to ask them for you on my tumblr, or @VenusAngelic on Twitter! ♪

❤HAPPY END BEGINNING❤